It’s me, again. I’m typing this Sunday evening at the library before it closes. I have been pretty absent for the last six months (and so). I still haven’t found the balance between work and blogging. What does that mean for the blog? I’m not sure. Maybe it’s the beginning of the end. I say this for a few reasons, the first being I can’t balance work and blogging, as already stated and secondly, my laptop is broken.
My laptop is a Mac and ever since Tuesday or Wednesday, it has the prohibitory symbol at the start-up. I’m not sure how to fix it and I’ve done what’s been recommended online from various websites to no avail.
“Why would you quit because your laptop’s broken?”
The laptop itself is not a huge loss. I’ve known for a while that I’ve needed to replace and I just haven’t. Between saving for BEA and now ALA, I haven’t had the spare money to set aside.
However, on my laptop, there was the great majority of all my blogging ideas and drafts an just…everything. When something I wrote or type goes missing, I go into shutdown mode as far as that creative expression is concerned. It happened when I lost a notebook years ago when I used to write super short stories and poems and it’s happening again.
I don’t know how to start from scratch. It’s like, too hard to start from scratch. I don’t want to. I think. I should have backed everything up. I don’t know why I didn’t. It’s so easy to do, even if it’s just uploading the files to Google Drive. It’s so ridiculously easy and I rarely did it. The thought that I could have prevented losing (almost) everything is so discouraging that I’m not sure I can do it again. I’m going to try though. It may mean just doing Top Ten Tuesdays and Wondrous Covers Wednesdays and a couple non-book related posts.
I have a very small hope though. My dad says his boss’ wife is going to be in town (if she hasn’t already come and left) and she works on computers. Maybe, if my dad’s not mistaken, she’ll be able to figure something out with my Mac, just enough so I have time to backup my documents.
Secondly, I may take it into Best Buy in a couple months, after ALA, when I have money and see if they can do anything.
Finally, I’ve heard something online that sounds like I could connect my broken Mac to a new Mac and using some kind of software thing (I think. . .) and save the files that way. I may have misunderstood the little I read about that idea, but it’s a hope.
I’m going to be buying a used Mac or at least making payments on one hopefully next week, so that’s a positive. I guess.
Mostly, I don’t care about my laptop, I just want my files and knowing they’re just sitting on a broken laptop makes me really, really sad. I’ve always said it’s scarring to lose creative work and I meant it. It’s happened too many times for me to not just totally withdraw and I know that sounds dramatic, but, I don’t know, it just sucks.
In the meantime, while I figure out how to do this blogging thing again, I’ll be coming to the library on my days off of work and short days, I’ll draft up Top Ten Tuesdays and Wondrous Covers Wednesday’s so there’s something resembling consistency.
This brings me to my final section: